For The Sake Of Montage
Most of the times I work with a director. Sometimes I feel the need to create something independently. In this case, I’ve developed a character with a sexual preference for himself, and see what happens. It was mainly an excuse to improve my improvising skills and imagination. But obviously, the choice of playing a narcist doesn’t come without a reason. I was anticipating on a great challenge.
Actors need to somehow identify themselves with the characters they’re playing. That makes some of them easy to play, and some of them extremely hard. I praise actors who give solid performances when it has very little similarity to their own character. Villains – especially psychopathic villains – are a great example of difficult parts. Does an actor borrow his/her own hatred and sadism to the character they’re portraying, or does an actor do research? Everyone has his own way. Anyhow, if the audience believes the performance, that means the actor found a small part within him/herself that actually fits the psychological puzzle.
I believe there’s no way to completely identify with another person without actually becoming them. For the better that is; I would feel arrogant being professor-understandence. That’s why my performance doesn’t represent any prejudices about narcissistic people. There’s actually a lot of my personal awkwardness in the character. The performance mirrors the struggles that come with being labeled, by actually being non-relatable: a figment of my imagination. Yet it contains a body with brains and emotions, that’s all one needs to relate to.